just when you thought it was over: here comes another survey thingy! yay!

BASICS:
[Name]: Joyce
[Nicknames]: lil one, juice, joycie, "the Boss"
[Age]: 23 (mj)
[Age you act]: uh, 2...yeah~
[Height]: 5'1.5"
[Where Do You Live]: Dallas
[Where you want to live]: maybe dallas. san fran too.
[Birthplace]: Dallas

HAVE YOU EVER:
[pictured ur crush naked?]: NO
[actually seen ur crush naked]: NO
[been in love]: nope
[cried when someone died]: yeah and i didn't even know them that well. it will be horrible when it will be someone i am close with.
[drank alcohol]: yes, but not much
[lied]: "no"
[fallen for ur best friend]: no, i don't swing that way~
[been rejected]: yes
[rejected someone]: unfortunately yes
[used someone]: define "used". jk. no.
[been cheated on]: i dunno. don't think so.
[done something u regret]: yes
[Been In Jail]: yes, but for the Bill Glass prison ministry
[Done Drugs]: does advil count?
[Run Away from home]: no, but thought about it many times
[Hit A Boy]: on purpose, yes
[Broken A Bone]: no, but i always wanted to so i could use crutches
[Cheated On A Test]: i was da masta. i got joo through business calc
[Let a friend cry on your shoulder]: mmm...not really shoulder as much as cell phone
[Fell asleep in the shower/bath]: no, but i wish i could so i could get more sleep in
[walked in on someone changing or showering]: uh, unfortunately
[Gone to Church]: every Sunday
[Never slept during a night]: happened a couple of times
[Ever been on a motorcycle or motorbike]: no they're too cold
[Seen someone die]: not in real life
[Broken something valuable]: i think so but can't think of it. guess it wasn't too valuable.
[Thought you were in love]: no
[Screamed at someone for no reason]: ALL THE TIME. haha.
[Stayed up till 4 am on the phone]: yeah >.<

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX:
[what do u notice first?]: height
[last person u slow danced with]: chris from homecoming. that was a LONG time ago...
[worst thing to say]: sam told me never to say to a guy, "if you loved me, you would do _____"
[do you have a crush]: do celebs count?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT:
[Bill Clinton]: nasty, but good at sax <-hehe
[Love at First Site]: more like sparks
[Abortion]: totally against. that's why there's adoption people!
[Teenage smoking]: only b/c of peer pressure
[Pot]: "gateway to other drugs"
[Eating disorders]: sad
[Rap]: 2pac & eminem
[Marilyn Manson]: grotesque
[Suicide]: if you want to go to hell
[Drinking]: don't really like the taste of alcohol.
[Life]: unfair, but you gotta deal
[Death]: inevitable
[God]: is indescribable

FAVORITE:
[Memory Of The year]: seeing thousands of "red devils" cheering for Korea during the 2002 world cup
[Food]: kimchi (only if it's ripened), kim bap, french fries, my salad, whataburger meal #8, cpk's chicken dumplings appetizer, macaroni
grill's bbq chicken pizza, wing stop, chinese pickles, chili's tostada chips & salsa...
[Love Song]: right now...BoA's Jewel Song
[Favorite movie]: toss up btwn "while you were sleeping" and "a league of their own"
[Favorite Book]: i maybe wrong, but i doubt it by charles barkley. otherwise, i don't read books. i love magazines!
[Favorite Type of music]: korean, bubblegum pop, rap, classical
[Favorite types of cars]: anything mercedes or lexus or something way too expensive. nothing bmw.
[Favorite Saying]: what da freak?
[Favorite Fast Food]: mcdonald's, of course!
[Favorite Ice Cream]: chocolate chip
[Favorite Alcoholic Drink]: lemon drop
[Favorite holiday]: Christmas
[Favorite Food]: japanese and american
[Favorite Song]: impossible to pinpoint
[Favorite Television Show(s)]: fresh prince of bel-air, jeopardy, wheel of fortune, will & grace
[Your Ideal BF/GF]: (not in any order except the 1st one) Christian, decent-looking, smart, athletic, bilingual (in korean), observant, has lots
of common sense, humorous

WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU:
[Took A Shower]: @ 6:20 this morning
[Cried]: last night watching "the little mermaid" (drama)
[Watched a Disney movie]: "a bug's life" a few months ago
[Given/gotten a hug]: hugged tracy, viet girl in prison, last weekend
[Been to the movies]: while ago..when "drumline" (GO WATCH IT) came out

THE FUTURE:
[School]: brookhaven to get my teaching certification
[Where You Want To Live]: dallas to raise kids, s.f. to retire
[How Many Kids You Want]: 3 - 1st boy, then girl, then boy
[What Kind Of Job You Want]: celeb photographer or movie critic
[i want]: to meet my husband
[i wish]: sam & hanna weren't going to russia
[i love]: my friends~*
[i miss]: tae oppa & jenny unnie
[i fear]: of someone i am close with dying suddenly or having our house broken into while we're sleeping
[i hear]: boA's Jewel song in my head
[i wonder]: if i'll ever meet my future bf/husband
[how do u kno its love?]: i'll know when it happens

fill one out too~! (^.^)v (2nd LONG post for the day)

Squirted 3:43 PM by E-J Yi

eye poison: i really feel not too good right now...and you'll read why later on...

yay mavericks won! :) sad that dirk didn't get to be a starter in the all-star game, but i just hope that he doesn't get hurt. and i will be sad/mad if chris webber gets mvp of the league. cuz he's probably going to jail after the season is over. that's just sad.

yesterday things were going GREAT watching tv with my parents. we watched our korean drama: dragging, but still fun. then we caught the "man vs. beast" where the elephant races (and beats) 44 "small people" (i.e. midgets): that was funny, too. then my dad flips to "primetime live thursday" and lo and behold: it's about the porn industry. an "insider-look" on how a girl's career gets started and what she has to go through. before you read the next paragraph, i'm going to summarize and say how i feel so if you don't want to read it, skip it.

ok, it first started out with this pretty girl who just wanted to do nude photos. well, of course, they start telling her of the big bucks she would make if she did movies. she was sold. but luckily for her, she did like one or two movies and had enough. went back home. that was the "nice" story. the absolutely terrifying and horrendous one was about this girl who was raised in a strict mormon family with 8 siblings. her parents got a divorce and she was dumped by her bf for a stripper, but that didn't cause her to go into the industry. she was molested when she was 14 by some guy and it scarred her ever since. the sad thing is that most of the people who go into this business have broken homes or messed up lives and think that they can enter hollywood by doing this thing. as one male, ex-porno star, said, "people go into this business thinking it is a stepping stone into the real(?) world of hollywood, but it is a tombstone into the real world." that is SO true. so this girl, her name is bella donna or something, did her 1st movie as her natural blonde self and immediately dyed her hair black "for some reason". i think she did this to show that she was never going to be the same girl before. and during the interview she described what "acts" she had to perform that is just so disgusting that i don't want to even think about much less write about. they even showed clips of her which diane sawyer said, "warning, this is difficult to watch", but OMG~ me & my mom shrieked and covered our eyes. it was HORRIBLE. i felt SOOO sorry for her. but while she said her story, she said everything with a smile on her face. she said that she just wanted "to be loved". then she tried to quit the business. she went home after a truly violent movie (she cried for days after doing it) and vowed never to do it again. but she gets a call and decides to shoot one. she goes to prague to shoot it and after she does it, she cries again. but like through her tears, she exclaims that "i'm happy". it was unreal. then we find out that the movie does SO well that she continues to do movies and she has become a huge star. her friend who once visited the set of one of her movies and said that she could never do it, got into the business seeing all the money her friend was making. she was making $100,000 a year. unbelievable. this is for a job that has no health insurance or workman's comp. even people who box the video gets those benefits. sad, huh? during the interview, bella donna's mom is sitting nearby, NOT crying, but just sitting stone-faced. diane sawyer interviews her and her mom is just mad. she's mad at these big name corporations like AOL/TimeWarner, GM (who owns DirectTV), and hotels that are making HUGE dollars ($10 Billion) by distributing these films. she says, "it's not fair that they daughters get to go to college and live in nice, beautiful houses while my daughter does this. i want to ask them, 'would you let YOUR daughter do this?'" i was appalled. her daughter CHOSE to do this. and later on during the interview, diane sawyer asks bella donna, "how come you always smile when you're describing everything?" and that girl says, "i smile because i like to hide my emotions. (tears well up in her eyes) i don't like to show my emotions. now i'm going to start crying! (she starts crying.)" diane asks her, "why are you crying? what are you trying to hide?" bella: "that i hate myself. i hate what i'm doing. i hate it." man, that got me & my mom crying. it was so sad. but to me, the WORST part of the whole story is that primetime live (working on this story for 2 years) checked back on them recently to see how some of the girls they followed were doing. bella donna's other movies were big hits and now she's a big star. when she first started she swore that she would never use drugs, but now she does. and even worse: her MOM is her personal manager! i was like, OMG, what da heck? that's freakin' messed up. and the girl has chlmydia. she's scared of AIDS, but she says she just "prays" that she doesn't get it. she has some nerve to be praying for something like that. after that, me and my mom (and probably my dad) were numb. i felt so digusted and i hated everybody that was interviewed (except sawyer, of course). my dad just said, "it's the end of the world". i couldn't agree more. i'll never forget those images of what they showed cause they have been scarred into my brain. and i didn't even see everything! i kept closing my eyes and ears so i wouldn't hear or see anything. but we all kept watching. i hated the fact that we wanted to stop watching, but we couldn't. not about the sex part, but because we were learning about the industry and how it was pulling society into a deeper hole. it was absolutely disgusting and it made me hate our culture. with all that said and done, i couldn't get the images out of my head. i still can't. before i fell asleep (i'm surprised i did, but i was really tired), the story of that girl was in my thoughts. she was just like the girl-next-door thing. so were the other girls. and now they are called "throwaway people". an average porn-star's career is 18 months! that's...i don't have a big enough vocab to describe how terrible everything was. it truly was eye poison.

OK. i am finished with THAT. i hope i don't think about it too much today or this weekend. i don't know how people can enjoy that stuff. i understand the occasional love scene in movies and stuff, but it has just gotten out of control. but enough! >.< no more!

alright. today's going to be a good day. it's not as cold as i thought it would be. old navy performance fleece is truly awesome! haha...i sound like a nerd.

going to su ra with young today for lunch. yipee~! =) then i have dinner with the young adults later tonight. and *hopefully* get to catch some of the mavs/knicks game that grace is at. saturday is carolyn's 1st bday and so i'm having dinner again with them. lots of eating out! i love it! =D

well, hope you have a GREAT weekend! thanks for reading~!

song of the day: boA - Jewel Song

Squirted 10:58 AM by E-J Yi

rumblings: i'm hungry. feed me!! i'll just go get some muffins from the vending machine...

i got something to eat. mini blueberry muffins. yum! :)

tv recap: watched "american idol". i actually got tired of listening/watching these terrible singers. i didn't catch the entire thing (b/c of "bachelorette"), but i don't think i missed out much. "bachelorette" was kinda boring too. if you haven't seen it, i won't spoil it for you, but sad that someone didn't get a rose. dunno if i care about that show anymore. korean tv shows have started doing dating shows with celebrities and that's a hecka lot more interesting. i'll probably stick with "idol" though since it's live.

ooh! yesterday i bought my basketball!! i was very excited. nice, huh? after watching tv, i went outside to shoot some baskets. it was FREAKIN' COLD outside, but it was fun. my basket is a lil high so i had a hard time at first, but soon i was making baskets. =) i felt my lungs closing in so i went back inside. it was fun, but man, too cold!! i just HAD to shoot it last night. i hope i'll keep up with this. my dad was so happy that i am exercising that he didn't care that i bought another bball. we have one that's purple and has the "space jam" movie logo on it. i have NO idea where we got that.

it's very cold right now. i hate it. and i'm supposed to eat subway today? i'll have to talk to cindy about this...

song/download of the day: lee soo young - la la la (^.^)v

Squirted 10:54 AM by E-J Yi

rock the house: ok, i can't think of clever titles anymore. but it refers to how the DALLAS BEAT HOUSTON last night!! haha. suckers. =P

btw, i don't like it when guys (i've never heard a girl say this) say, "man, the rockets just got RAPED by the mavericks". it's really not the right word to be using. it makes rapes seem like it can be compared to a game when it's something totally in a world by itself. how could you ever compare the violent and emotional scars of rape to a basketball/video/whatever game? it's an ugly word and it's just pains me when guys use it to describe the outcome of a game. just say "owned" like how the mavericks OWNED the rockets last night.

i watched part of "american idol 2". mainly the ny auditions. terrible. the people who made it through from ny will probably not go all the way. there are MAYBE 2 people there who have a chance in cracking the top 30. everybody else, just go home. tonight's a tv battle between "ai2" and "the bachelorette". julie gave me a recap of last week's "bachelorette" and told me how funny bob was. he is~! i like the fact he's not great-looking, but uses his humor to make everybody laugh and feel comfortable. what a cool guy.

today's very cold and will be until friday. friday's high is 19?? and saturday gets warm again? texas weather is messed up, but i like it so i can utilize most of my clothes by layering.

yesterday me, julie, and sam had a discussion about the recent prison ministry that we attended and the reactions we've gotten from others. my parents seem more open to it now which is great. however, i felt my first, i dunno, negative comment towards my religion/faith the other day at work. of all people, one of my co-workers which i'm closest to asked me where i was over the weekend. i told him and he did the routine, "i'm glad you came back alive." thing. then he goes on to say, "what did you do there?" and i explained to him what we did. when all was said and done, he says, "you guys are weird" and leaves. my FIRST reaction was (in all sincerity), "thanks, i know i am." and then i got sad b/c 1) he (who i like) made that comment and 2) nobody's ever said anything like that to me before about being Christian. but i know it's something i'm supposed to go through anyway. i wasn't hurt too much by that comment, but it was an eye-opening experience(?). but besides him, i was very disappointed to find out that one of our Christian friends was questioning WHY we had gone to the prisons. (i'm stepping on my soapbox) if you're a Christian, you don't just stay with your Christian friends. you're not here to be with just people who are "Christian" like you. you're here to reach out to others who aren't believers and to encourage those who are. but when you question those who are reaching out to those who really need it more than others (those who are incarcerated) then by golly, you should support AND encourage AND GO JOIN THEM. and it's my friends who don't regularly attend Church who are the ones who are supporting and encouraging me. i find that incredibly disappointing. so then what makes "us" (we who claim we are "real" Christians) different from non-believers? NOTHING. we're the same and we shouldn't be. they (non-believers) should look at Christians and think, there IS something different about them. he/she is a good person and i like what he/she does. i want to find out why he/she is happy. (stepping down) ok, i had to say that b/c it was really bothering me yesterday. and if you get offended by what i just wrote, then maybe it's b/c it's true.

ouch? harsh? i don't like to sugar-coat things as you can tell. don't get me wrong, i still love my friends and will be there for them as always. but there are times (seems like many these days) where i feel just...disappointed.

ok, let's turn onto a lighter subject. i feel like playing basketball. like REALLY playing basketball. i'm thinking of buying a ball tonight even! i want to practice the fundamentals: dribbling (especially with my left hand), passing, and free throws. i SUCK at basketball, but as sam told me yesterday, if i practice the fundamentals first, then i can do the fancy stuff later. if i ever get there! haha. so this is my new "thing", i guess? i think it will good for me b/c i could really, REALLY use the exercise these days.

crap. anybody who knew about me & the potential mavericks thingy? doesn't look like it's going to happen anytime soon. argh.

oh well. i guess i'll just stay at this 'nothing-to-do' job.

don't feel real good right now. maybe will post later. =\

Squirted 10:53 AM by E-J Yi

texas showdown: DALLAS v. houston tonight! BEAT THE ROCKETS!!!

ok, i need to make this quick. for some reason, people have decided to give me alot of work to do. i'm almost finished though. most normal people would have taken the rest of the week to finish what i can accomplish in 2 days. thankyouverymuch. but i'm getting miffed about some of the things people have been asking me to do.

i'm in limbo. all i gotta say is the dallas mavericks are making me nervous.

american idol 2 tonight. gonna tape that. hope it's better than the other reality shows that we've been watching.

had a great time with young, grace, and julie @ macaroni grill (my bbq pizza was the best) and @ the melting pot. i hope young doesn't mind being the only guy with us girls, but we all have a great time. =)

ok, i better finish doing some stuff. (^.^)v

Squirted 4:03 PM by E-J Yi

one more time!: much LOVE goes to...

MICHELLE KWAN for winning her 7th national championship!! WOO HOO~!! sad that i didn't get to see the performances, but i saw the exhibition and it was great. i'm soooo happy that she beat sarah & sasha.

yay michelle! you rock~! (^.^)v

Squirted 3:33 PM by E-J Yi

guess who's back: back again. here's a short recap of my weekend:

went to san antonio with julie, sam, and jimmy for another prison ministry weekend. got to see DAVID ROBINSON in person. freakin' giant. and freakin' handsome. me & julie got assigned to a women's prison. sad to see that women age very quickly there. only 1 asian in there and she was part-viet, chinese, and "camboodian" (as she says it). alot of the women broke down and cried when listening to the messages and stuff. very emotional. overall, a good experience again. jimmy & sam got their crosses (made of real prison bars) for going to 5 weekends. i just had my 3rd. only 2 more to go!

i am very tired, but it's a good tired. although i have a headache right now, i'm sure i'll have a good day today b/c i'm meeting grace & young @ macaroni grill tonight. i've been craving that for a year now and hopefully it will be up to my expectations. =)

mavs lost 3 in a row?? what da heck?? this is not good. and they're playing houston tuesday. sorry, american idol, but i gotta watch that game. beat the rockets!!!!

ok, i thought this was a funny story, but you might not:

this mother (who was a counselor like me @ the prison thingy) was complaining about her son who refuses to use acne medication and his headgear for his braces. she was mad that she spent all this money on him to improve his looks, but he doesn't care. and this other mother piped in and said her son doesn't use his acne medication either. i just told them it's "boys will be boys" and that it was probably a pride and not wanting to be girly thing. well, the first mother had always been nagging her son to wear it cuz it's only at night. she goes, "i found out that one of his friend's has a headgear too. so i told him to wear his when he goes to his friend's house to spend the night to wear his so he won't be embarrassed." OMG, i died laughing! i haven't laughed that hard in weeks. i don't think she found it as funny as me & the other mom did, but i was just imagining these 18 yr old guys hanging out wearing their headgears. :D and then that mom said that one time her son got mad so he put on the headgear so tight that he broke his braces brackets off his teeth!! she thinks he did it on purpose b/c they lived an hour and a half from their orthodontist. lol.

k, i found that funny b/c yes, i had a headgear that i wore religiously every night. and so that story just had me laughing for hours. i still laugh just thinking about it! :)

alright i'm supposed to be doing this freakin' tedious thing. argh. but no worries. only an hour and a 1/2 till i get off! (^.^)v

Squirted 3:23 PM by E-J Yi