american beauty: i find it ironic that my dad enjoyed that movie so much. why? b/c he said that it represented dysfunctional american families so realistically. oh, it does, appa? how strange it is when i find that the family in the movie isn't so different from ours...

i, too, enjoyed that movie. why? b/c it was entertaining. and yeah, it does have some statements on our society that ring true. but i found myself suddenly thinking of that movie last night...

my dad decides to give me & julie yet another lecture last night. he called me crazy & absent-minded. thanks dad. you're a real encourager. he has never praised me & julie. if we do good (which is hardly ever in his eyes), he takes the credit. that he "made us look good". that since we "listened to him this is what comes out". oh, but when we do bad! it is ONLY b/c we "refused to listen/rebelled/had our minds only on korean videos, american tv, movies, and the computer". yes, folks, the secret's out. that's what consumes me & julie's minds 24/7. all i think about it movies, korean dramas, and tv. oh and the computer. i have no brain functions except to memorize all celebrities' faces & trivia and daydream about what my soap opera husband would look and act like. since i am crazy and only think of entertainment, therefore by deductive reasoning, i am not "qualified to watch korean dramas and talk shows until so". these " " (quotes) are EXACT words, people. i am a 23-year old with a college degree in MIS, yet i am not "qualified to watch tv".

back to american beauty. i said i was reminded of that movie last night, right? no, nothing about the daughter getting with the next door neighbor or extra-marital activities. it's the way the family acted outside their home. like they were a happy family. yes, i am saying that our family is not a happy family. [i was brainstorming a hitler/concentration camp metaphor, but found our situation might lessened the gravity of the holocaust.] i find it extremely funny that people see this man who resembles my father as wonderfully gentle & nice. oh, what a tangle web we weave! he's a great actor. one of the highlights of my LIFE was when i went to new jersey with my family to see my dad's old friends. i wasn't looking forward to eating dinner with a bunch of married ladies, but when they told my mom, "why do you live in texas? live up here with us! you must go through some hard times with him. we are here for you. we know what young ho is like. we ALL know." with that, they all shot a sympathetic look towards me & my sister. my mom's eyes glistened. i knew that they knew. i never thought anybody would know. his friends know exactly what he's like. i know why my parents moved. b/c my dad wanted to move away from them. i know you think i'm making this up, but my dad likes to escape things. and i know he was escaping them. b/c they knew him too well. and for that, i'm forever grateful that they understand us. they told my mom that me & julie grew up to be good girls and i take that to heart b/c they know what kind of suffering we went through. i know i've complained to some of my close friends about him, but there's just so much more i'd like to say, but probably couldn't b/c my mom & sister wouldn't allow it. they don't like people to know that they're hurting. i used to say to myself saying, "joyce, you're lucky b/c you've never been in the hospital, you've never had a disease, you're not physically deformed (ok, SOME of you might think so...haha) nor academically challenged. you don't go through real hardships in life like others. you've never had to experience the death of a close loved one or been through real physical pain." but i've changed my thinking. my hardship is living with my dad. and if i wasn't Christian, i'd probably do something...let's say, un-Christian-like. yes, things would be TOTALLY different if i wasn't Christian.

ok, i don't like pushing my Christianity on anybody or whatever, but i just needed to say that. i know i've probably done more damage to my family just now and it will probably come back to kick me in the butt, but i don't care. i don't hide my feelings. it's my life and this is how i'm going to live it. right now, i need to find out what i'm going to do with it.

Squirted 11:38 AM by E-J Yi

yes, i'm FREAKIN' bored: new template. how do you like?

man oh man. there is NOTHING TO DO. and it's only 3:37. DAYANG. please somebody put me out of my misery and shoot me.

ok, not really. you wanna know what i got for Christmas? "no, joyce, we don't...", but OH WELL. I'M BORED.

*from ann: hello kitty "best friends" board game, UT mug, and "smart girl's guide to dating". lol.
*from umma: slippers (and something else she says, but i'm guessing money)
*from appa: money (dang, i'm glad i got him that paper shredder = translation: money was tight this year)
*from the pangs: cool desktop shelves
*from the wons: BSB DVDs (ann, you gotta watch) and bath & body works country apple foam soap (yay!)
*from julie: monogrammed pocket Bible (in my fav black & with a snap closure)
*from sara: james avery dove
*from alley: incense sticks

yes and i'm missing 2 presents. from sean & the jungs. not that it matters. they just told me they had them for me. =)

i might go see "drumline" again today with sara. i hope this will come true. i miss the movie already! =*)

i like talking mavs or sports these days. probably b/c i've been stuck to espnradio for a few months now. i asked sean if it was weird that girls knew alot of sports. he said no. i hope so. cuz i don't want to seem like a hoss. but if you wanna do some mavs talk, hit me up!

i need to go home & watch some korean dramas. (^.^)v

Squirted 3:45 PM by E-J Yi

(late) merry Christmas: man, i meant to update over the 2-day break...oh well.

let's see...the 23rd was pretty awesome. me & sean got the game a lil late, but just in time to see the hilarious lombardi's commercial that featured adrian griffin, popeye jones, and dirk. freakin' funny. dirk's sucha dork. i know why grace adores him so much. the game was pretty cool. people don't get into the game until the 2nd half though. the first half was actually kinda boring. me & sean ordered our food during the 2nd qtr (yeah, we ORDERED b/c we're high-rollers, jk...we were too lazy to find a place to eat) and (sean) paid a hefty price for it. we were supposed to get our food in 10 minutes or less but it took 20. freakin' #$%^&%. we were really hungry, too. but i think i was so hungry that i lost my appetite. anyways, it was amazing to see mj play. even though he didn't do anything flashy, i can still tell my grandkids that i saw him play his last game in dallas. the man is a legend. but glad we won, anyway! :D afterwards i drove sean home to his house in the freakin' boonies. i love just talkin' with him. we talk about anything and it's just all funny (only to us, of course). i told him the cell phone story and he was freakin' cracking up! :D unfortunately, i didn't get the same reaction from julie. she just stared at me. o_o

the 24th (no work!! WHOO HOO!) was spent buying last-minute gifts ALL AROUND THE FREAKIN' TOWN. [notice the "word of the day": FREAKIN'] i can't believe i drove all around town. i went to so many places that it made my head spin. then i had to go to Church afterwards to "direct" the kids in the Christmas play. yes, and we got the drama that we get every year. sae hae kicks alex's school cello (by accident) smashing the bridge in 3 pieces. wonderful. and then she forgets her lines. *big sign* but i guess it turned out okay. the EM orchestra was good though. a freakin' long program, but the music was good. almost, (nah, not really) made me want to play...

on Christmas, me & julie deliver some presents (david & ann) and then head off into the boonies of flower mound. we seriously drove until the road was blocked. that's where duke lives. freakin' FAR! nice neighborhood though. so me & julie stayed there all day watching tv and rush hour 2. then a tired ole me had to go home so i could wake up bright & early for work today. =) <-notice the sarcastic grin on my face.

more than 1/2 of the building is out today and there's nothing to do. whoopee~

gonna eat lunch @ sara's gageh today. hehe. and then meet um, hyun jin, and sara (AGAIN!) to eat @ chili's for dinner. yay! chips galore.

ok, my stomach really hurts. and you know what that means...(^.^)v

Squirted 9:17 AM by E-J Yi

i love my friends!: eunice exclaimed @ dinner. ain't that the truth!

yesterday, we had a BUNCH of people come out to cpk for dinner. almost too much. nah! you can never have too many friends. it was cool seeing everybody. wish we could have all sat together. but i had a great time chatting (& eating, of course!) and it was too bad we had to part early. =\ the funniest quote of the night came from david tsai. sean & wei had been talking about how they figured out that they were neighbors in the boonies of richardson. and sean said that "everybody's following me". um, yeah, sean...sure. and with a straight face & monotone voice, david said, "sean, you are the center of our universe." OMG, we were all laughin' so freakin' hard after that~! ahhh...good times. =D

tonight's the mavs game!! whoo hoo~! can't wait for that! jordan's last time in dallas. atleast i'll be able to tell my grandkids that i saw "his airness" before he retired. yess~! i hope that we win, but also see a good game from mj. that would be a great Christmas present. =) kinda sad that i'll be missing the Christmas fun @ Church today. maybe if they finish late and the game ends early, i can head over to Church...

man, i did ALOT of sleeping this past weekend. i was not feeling good friday or on saturday. i freakin' slept like most of the day on saturday. i felt better after that but sad that i wasn't able to do alot of fun stuff like hang out at the pangs. =\ i was kinda mad when i heard that mrs. fry was a lil miffed that alot of the youth group showed up to the nursing home. she was like, "why are there so many people?" what da heck? dude, maybe she should do something about HER kids first. atleast the youth group has the heart to come out. don't try to cover up your problems by lashing out. fake people suck. and i hate spoiled brats.

ok, enough of that.

man, there is like NOBODY here at work. so quiet!! :) more than 1/2 of the people are gone. i really, really hope that i get to leave early today. puh-leaze!!

gonna do some surfin'. (^.^)v

Squirted 9:08 AM by E-J Yi